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Sunday, 21 November 2010

The Deep Blue

So I thought that I would post a little differently than before, and start off with a video.
I saw this song on Glee (yes, I watch Glee, lol) and it just reminded me so much of my baby. I can’t wait to be able to see you after a whole week, gosh, I feel like I’m in withdrawal haha, if that’s even possible. But he really is my best friend and I really do love him, despite being across the “deep blue”. I love you baby!


So this post is actually in a response to a question from a one MR Micky. He asked:
“What is this ‘Church Youth Group’ and what does it mean to you?”
Well, instead of just giving you all a simple answer, I thought that I would tell you a little more about myself, my beliefs and my life. So here goes ...
I wouldn’t describe myself as being Atheist or Agnostic. I mean, I don’t believe in God but at the same time I might. Since childhood, I have spent most of my life theorising, analysing, rationalising life and it did nothing for me. Both of my sisters were raised religiously, they were baptised and went to Church, but it was almost as if by the time my parents had their third child, they had given up. Unlike them, I didn’t have a middle name, I wasn’t baptised, and I wasn’t taken to church. They just sort of, forgot me. But this isn’t about that, stop making me get off track! So I didn’t have a religious upbringing like them, and so I tried to fit in and turned to Christianity. This didn’t last long, I grew tired of asking pointless questions that were never going to be answered. In the famous words of ... (bonus point, if someone can tell me who) :
When in disgrace with fortune and men’s eyes,
I all alone beweep my outcast state,
And trouble deaf heaven with my bootless cries,
And look upon myself and curse my fate.
So as I felt abandoned by the one person who was supposed to be there for you, unconditionally, I abandoned him. I shied away from Christianity and became Atheist. But in later years, I once again changed my religion ... I became a Buddhist. I thought logically that as I believed with almost ALL of their beliefs, then I MUST be Buddhist ... intentional or not. But this soon collapsed as just because I agreed with them, didn’t make me one of them. So here I am, I am neither Atheist or Agnostic. Why? Because I don’t get caught up on higher powers – or lack of – I live in the moment and just try to make the best of life. If life gives you lemons, why sit there and thinking about marketing?
‘So why do I go to a Christian Youth Group?’ I hear you ask. That has a simple answer. Because my friends do. No, its not about peer pressure, but simple the inaccessibility I have to them. This is because most of the people who go there are either younger than me and therefore still go to school, or they go to different colleges. There are 3 people I see on a daily basis there and for the rest, this is the only time. So I see that having to sit through a 5 minute lecture on the Bible as a small sacrifice to pay, to be able to see my friends.
Don’t get me wrong, I still agree with what the bible says – tbh all religions come down to the same basics – and find it interesting (even if I disagree with some of the big stuff, like Jesus) ; so I don’t mind sitting there respectfully while some pray and talk ... and yes, they know and like it that there are non-Christians there, before you say anything, lol.

So that about scratches the surface on my opinions on Religion, hope you liked it ... or at least aren’t put off by it lol. As always, I love getting comments, so feel free :)
~Jack xx


jaygeemmm said...

Shakespeare...I'd have to look up what it came from...

jaygeemmm said...

Your views make a lot of sense, Jack. I have become more of a Deist over the years - a God does exist, but He's a big picture Guy. I mean, how could any Being worry about every little person's prayers? And if He did, why do bad things happen to good people? To avoid turning this into a huge discussion, I'll just say, it's good that you find friendship and fellowship in a wholesome environment. And of course they're happy you're there, the more the merrier!
Peace <3

Jack xx said...

Well done lol, and sonnet 29.
And thanks :) Hope you find happynes in him. And it wouldnt be much of a debate lol, there are only three things that can agrivate me about Christianity, and the chances of you finding them are slim :P
Jack xx

wayner said...

I hope you get to hug your bf again soon. Love the Shakespeare quote (I Googled it lol); that man could say more in a few sentences than writers of today can say in a page. Basically he is saying that in spite of your best efforts during your life that you can still end up getting screwed, and the only place you can find sympathy is in the dictionary between shit and syphillis. But if religion can help someone make it through this crazy life well I won't hold it against them. What bothers me the most is the intolerant nature of organised religion; the belief that 'our' religion is the one and only 'true' path to God and heaven, and everyone else is doomed; talk about pernicious. But before you talk about belief in God then you must first define your concept of God. If you simply define God as 'the reason for existence' and nothing more, then maybe you are a believer. If you define God as an old man sitting on a cloud passing judgement then I don't blame you for being an athiest lol. Maybe 'agnostic' does fit you better. Personally I think we are all part of the same pool of life and return to it; the commonality being that existence seems to come from something very microscopic. Existence (the universe) would be meaningless without a consciousness to recognise it. But I do get weary of people who interpret organised religion for their own power and gain or outright bigotry; they will be the first in line to the hell that they are talking about.
-Religion is boring and depressing; you are young and full of energy so squeeze as much fun out of life as you can. 'eat, drink, and be merry for tomorrow we die' is an old cliche but a very true one. Life is about the journey cos we all know how it ends. bfn - Wayne :)

Jack xx said...

I couldnt agree with you more, thats why i gave it up and just live in the moment. Don't get me wrong, i do have some beliefs, like i believe/hope that we are all reincarnated (without the hierarchy) as i find it difficult to believe that life just ends but i dont get caught up on it. it doesnt affect my daily life.
Jack xx

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