I've decided that i dont really care anymore, and not to show it.
Inside i'm this type of person who is emotonally detached from most things and that although i get emotional, i actually dont have too many emotions, but i never let people know this because ... well, its abnormal.
But i've just had enough of it all. I hate that i have to pretend to be someone who i'm not. Its like going back into the closset once you've come out ... its a nightmare.
And here is my formal decloration that whatever people think of the real me, i'm not going to let it affect me. I've had enough!
So this is the
... or dont
7 comments:
I was a little scared at first, but then: yeeeaaaaah!
For me it was when I was 25 - I've left everything behind me and from one day to another i left my home in the country for starting my new life in Berlin. Good luck for your new life!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Edgar
Good on you, Jack. You're a strong guy :)
Rowan <3
Hi there, Jack
Or, should I say, welcome to the real Jack! I'm looking forward to getting to know you.
About emotions: different people feel emotions to different extents - some very strongly, some hardly at all. Each of us is somewhere on the spectrum between the two extremes, and I don't think anyone is abnormal because of it. we just have to understand how we feel and react, and how that relates to other people's feelings and reactions.
The next few years probably give you more freedom and opportunity to work out who you are, and to understand yourself, than any other time of your life. Yes, you'll be working hard on your degree - but you will be doing so in an environment where you don't bring any expectations from your past, and you can be whoever you want to be. Best of luck!
Take care
Mark
Actually I understand what you are saying about the emotional thing. Maybe some of us gays are emotionally hardened a bit; we need to be that way to survive in this hetero world.
-You are entering university this fall so why not go for the look that is the real you? I'm sure your EMO friend will appreciate your look; very hot! As for your family well they can get used to it. Living a lie sucks big time. Damn, I wish I were a young guy today. bfn - Wayne :)
I've never thought anything but the best about you, Jack. You're a great guy who's been a great friend to me.
Who are you pretending around? You've been pretty open here, at least AFAIK.
And your new look is just fine by me!
Peace <3
Jay
Its best to be yourself then fake. I don't know you very well but I stumbled across it and I love purple so it caught my attention. Being you, I bet you'll be a lot happier being yourself then someone your not. And Your 'New' Look is totally awesome :D
-Star Aka -(Kloe) ^_^
Hooray!
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