The Deep Blue

So I thought that I would post a little differently than before, and start off with a video.
I saw this song on Glee (yes, I watch Glee, lol) and it just reminded me so much of my baby. I can’t wait to be able to see you after a whole week, gosh, I feel like I’m in withdrawal haha, if that’s even possible. But he really is my best friend and I really do love him, despite being across the “deep blue”. I love you baby!

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So this post is actually in a response to a question from a one MR Micky. He asked:

“What is this ‘Church Youth Group’ and what does it mean to you?”

Well, instead of just giving you all a simple answer, I thought that I would tell you a little more about myself, my beliefs and my life. So here goes ...

I wouldn’t describe myself as being Atheist or Agnostic. I mean, I don’t believe in God but at the same time I might. Since childhood, I have spent most of my life theorising, analysing, rationalising life and it did nothing for me. Both of my sisters were raised religiously, they were baptised and went to Church, but it was almost as if by the time my parents had their third child, they had given up. Unlike them, I didn’t have a middle name, I wasn’t baptised, and I wasn’t taken to church. They just sort of, forgot me. But this isn’t about that, stop making me get off track! So I didn’t have a religious upbringing like them, and so I tried to fit in and turned to Christianity. This didn’t last long, I grew tired of asking pointless questions that were never going to be answered. In the famous words of ... (bonus point, if someone can tell me who) :

When in disgrace with fortune and men’s eyes,

I all alone beweep my outcast state,

And trouble deaf heaven with my bootless cries,

And look upon myself and curse my fate.

So as I felt abandoned by the one person who was supposed to be there for you, unconditionally, I abandoned him. I shied away from Christianity and became Atheist. But in later years, I once again changed my religion ... I became a Buddhist. I thought logically that as I believed with almost ALL of their beliefs, then I MUST be Buddhist ... intentional or not. But this soon collapsed as just because I agreed with them, didn’t make me one of them. So here I am, I am neither Atheist or Agnostic. Why? Because I don’t get caught up on higher powers – or lack of – I live in the moment and just try to make the best of life. If life gives you lemons, why sit there and thinking about marketing?

‘So why do I go to a Christian Youth Group?’ I hear you ask. That has a simple answer. Because my friends do. No, its not about peer pressure, but simple the inaccessibility I have to them. This is because most of the people who go there are either younger than me and therefore still go to school, or they go to different colleges. There are 3 people I see on a daily basis there and for the rest, this is the only time. So I see that having to sit through a 5 minute lecture on the Bible as a small sacrifice to pay, to be able to see my friends.

Don’t get me wrong, I still agree with what the bible says – tbh all religions come down to the same basics – and find it interesting (even if I disagree with some of the big stuff, like Jesus) ; so I don’t mind sitting there respectfully while some pray and talk ... and yes, they know and like it that there are non-Christians there, before you say anything, lol.

So that about scratches the surface on my opinions on Religion, hope you liked it ... or at least aren’t put off by it lol. As always, I love getting comments, so feel free :)

~Jack xx