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Tuesday, 8 March 2011

Life by Moonlight: Part 2

Last Time:
The sound of crashing metal echoed  throughout his mind as he focussed on the creature. Attack after attack, he avoided the deathly swings, but never able to attack, himself. Then, he missed. The creature dropped its left arm and sliced his chest open. It all went suddenly silent. As his eyes lowered, he looked at his blood covered hands, and it all went dark.
...

The mountainous ridges rose sharply on two sides forming the Greenhorn Valley. With seldom wind, seeds fell close to their parents forming a sheltered area that engulfed the mountains in a sea of greenery. Its strategic location allowed an even mixture of the seasons, causing its inhabitants to receive heat and snow, at opposite times of the year. Due to its position, the mountains escaped the sun, fleeing from the light to cause no shadow over the valley. Clouds were a rarity here, and when they did appear, they surrounded the lush mountaintops and sent a thick mist flowing down before it. The mist would creep up like a panther, silent and deadly, only providing you with a few feet of visibility. Deep in the depths of the surrounding forests, scattered settlements cascaded their way towards the valley floor, trying to reach the sanctity of flat ground. In the centre of the valley, ran the river Crystal, that provided life to all of its inhabitants. The valleymen were a private group who barely travelled beyond the protective mountains. Leaving the valley was both the greatest honour and the worst punishment, but they always ended with the same result. No return. Teachers and scientists had always been trusted to explore their confinements, filled with an air of arrogance and wonder, they reached the ridge and were never seen or heard from again. They knew little about the outside world, only learning from daring merchants wishing to seek business and trade. Superstition and stereotypes were taught in school as fact, and were never proved wrong.
They were all happy and content with their lives, only thinking about the day before and the day yet to come. All but one. A young boy who had always felt that life had something greater in store for him. He had always sought adventure and freedom in his sleepy prison, searching for some way to escape.
Wil was sixteen, although his inquisitive nature made him seem more boyish. No emotion touched him that did not instantly register in his expression and sincerity shone in him like a beacon. He was impulsive, extravagant and not overly bright; however, it was impossible not to like him. He had bronzed skin that had been sun touched, from working on his father’s farm all day and although he was not the strongest boy in the valley, what he lacked in strength, he made up for in spirit. He often wore leather pants and a tunic that were suitable for everyday work and relaxation. His deep brown eyes appeared so shockingly loving and innocent, they seemed almost oblivious to the danger that lay out there. He was half elf - on his mother’s side - and although he was the splitting image of his father, he still retained those distinctive and graceful characteristics of his mother. He had her slim nose, thin arched eyebrows and slightly pointed ears, hidden under his brown locks.
His coarse brown hair hung in his eyes as he stood, leaning on the windowsill, looking out across the valley, as his mother called him. Her sweet voice cut through the spring air, like a blade, but was not harsh on the ears. It filled your mind and made you want to hear more. Sweet, succulent aromas wafted in the air and through their home, to be warmly greeted. He instantly pushed away from the window and followed its delectable sent. His mother was standing over the range, putting the evenings dinner in the stove and stirred the half dozen pots, that sat on top. Her long flaxen hair, hung down and over her back in waves of gold. She wore a bland dress, of deep brown, that tightly hung to her and fell to about the knees. Although she was plain woman, who took little joy in anything but her family and home, she had a certain regality about her. She was soft and kind, and always knew just what to do or say. She was very intelligent, and seemed to know just what you were doing and appeared the split second something was broken. But despite this, she was full of life and forgiveness, there was nothing to big.
“Honestly Will, you waste all of you time doing silly and pointless things, its time for you to do something constructive. Go and help your father on the farm, he needs you.” This was more an order than a suggestion, but he did it anyway, exiting the room and muttering to himself as he did so.

To Be Continued ...

Monday, 7 March 2011

Am I Blind?



So the other day I was walking home from college when I walked past this guy who was sat on a fence. He was middle aged, smoking, worried look on his face. I felt like stopping and checking like he was ok, like any normal kind-hearted human being; but instead I just kept walking.

I felt genuinely worried for the man as he looked quite upset, but I just couldn’t bring myself to stop. I kept telling myself that he’s ok and he’ll be fine. It was just my imagination; but how do I know that?!

I mean, I know other people from other generation would stop if I was acting like that. I know there are these people out there, but where? And why aren’t I one of them?

What if my generation don’t do this, out of fear of looking stupid? What if we never grow up to care for one another. We would just be a group of people, living as a community, but being disjointed, alone within a sea of others.

If we don’t get this sense of morality and passion for other people, what then? Will all civilisation be lost? If we can’t learn this, then how do we expect our children to? Or their children? Where will this skill be picked up again?

Or will it? We could be like so many of our animal predecessors: extinct.

WE need this love and compassion for one another to survive. Yes, it is survival of the fittest outside, but if we all banded together, then we all win.

Society needs us.


Jack xx

Sunday, 6 March 2011

End of an Era



I watched you every day.
And I
memorised your hair, your eyes,
Looking the night away.
Painting your face inside my mind,
Hoping never to forget,
Worlds apart and yet so close,
So full of love and regret.

Where is he, n’ where did he go?
Why was he here and then not so?
I’m tearing up my mind, inside.
But time moves on,
And so must we,
The seasons change,
And finally flee.
And like the bluebird,
You sang your song,
Then you fly away,
And you move on.

Looking for answers, but don’t know where,
Just the dark blue sky hanging there,
The wind whistling through the pain,
Just a long, long night with nothing to gain.

Thunderclouds looming overhead,
N’ lightning strikes the ground.
Thunderclouds looming overhead,
N’ a tree falls down.

The dim streets, n’ the dark night,
Shadows moving outa sight,
Broken limbs and a broken heart,
Broken mind, but no re-start.





It still hurts, when I think of you,
It still hurts, to breathe.
It still hurts, when I say your name,
It still hurts, me.

Saturday, 5 March 2011

TGIS!

So today I had the sense to do nothing. I mean, don’t get me wrong, I have LOADS to do, but I just cba.

I was up until early this morning doing crap, and watching TV. I just wasn’t in the mood to sleep. Go figure. So I go to bed at 2am and get up about 8. Usual Saturday.

I lay in bed until about mid-day watching TV and wasting my life away, the good way. My friend has really got me into Naruto! Its kind of annoying that she has so much influence over me, but I don’t mind. Its a good show (I’m actually watching it as I write this).

Naruto and Sasuke would make such a cute couple!


Anyway, so I’m spending my Saturday night at home, alone, and what do I do?

I help my friend get dressed. Long story short, I was providing her with fashion advice and telling her what to wear, and then we webcamed and she showed me what we decided :P
She looked AMAZING!

She used to be a model!




And so as we were deciding what to wear, she admitted something to me ...

She used to have a big crush on me when she first met me.

Want to know the annoying thing? I had a huge one on her at the same time!

Its always the case with me. I like a girl, but am WAY to shy, so I don’t say anything. Eventually I get over the crush, and we become close friends, just for me to find out they like me and that we could have had our happy ever after together.
You’d be surprised how often this has happened to me...

Don’t get me wrong, I’m happy with Peter and she now has a bf, so I’m glad we didn’t get together. But its just SO frustrating!

We got into a discussion about why we didn’t say anything to each other. She actually feels like she is “plain” an “invisible” and yet she is stunning! And I told her that I didn’t make a move because she was out of my ‘league’.

Its interesting how the league system works because its always different to different people. To me, she is like a 9, but she doesn’t feel the same. She thinks of herself more of a 4. People are attracted to different things and its just such a shame that some people cant understand how they are attractive to others.

I know I am being a hypocrite because I’m the EXACT same as my friend, but its interesting. Almost everyone feels the same way: they don’t like how they look, and yet, when they are confronted with someone who also doesn’t like they way they look, they find it difficult to understand how they feel that way!

That’s the mind for you. Predictable and yet, unique.

Jack xx

Life by Moonlight: Part 1

“Charge!”
The command thundered between the surrounding mountains, as the nearing army stormed onwards. The clouds were blackened and cast a dim light over the battlefield, the only source of light from the aberrant flashes of lightning. Together they struck fear in the heart of man, promising imminent defeat and death to those who wait. Thunder rumbled overhead and filled the valley with its song, as the steady beat of rain grew stronger and more boisterous. The torrential downpour transformed the once lush, grassy field into a barren swamp, in a matter of minuets, but the oncoming mass seemed unfazed and did not slow. Battle cries raged and grew in numbers, the shrieks now barely audible over the thunderous storm and blustering winds.
And then he saw them.
Disfigured creatures swarming in the distance, as far as the eye could see, until they merged into a gigantic black cloud. It was full of a strange black light, an area of nothingness that burrowed through the air, engulfing anything in its path. No light was emitted, but rather it sought out and absorbed what little there was. It covered the surrounding area, flowing over the distant hills and never stopping, never slowing. Leaching the life out of the land.
In the distance the beasts had looked normal and almost human, but this was far from the truth. They all varied in size and shape, no two the same, and although they resembled man, their flesh was rotten and black, and their bloody eyes filled with a hated unknown to anything alive. They stormed ahead with a single-mindedness determination, oblivious to anything but their one and only goal. They were not here to conquer, they were here to destroy.
They were only half a league away now, but they were cloaked in darkness, masking their grotesque forms and any other features.
“Now!”. The commanding roar was bellowed from somewhere behind him, in the mass of silver armour. He just had time to witness the legions fall into position, before the approaching army reached its prey.
The spearmen were on the front line and lowered their pikes against the approaching doom. Hand crafted wooden shafts with metal tips, were all that stood between the two opposing forces. Behind them, legions of archers released a sea of arrows on the enemy, dropping them dead. Limp corpses littered the ground with wooden shafts protruding from their bodies. But this was a mere scratch on the enemy’s endless army, and the dead were simply trodden on and forgotten. The latter approached they rammed into the weapons, sacrificing themselves. They managed to support the numbers for a while, but they were soon overpowered and the barrier was broken. 
The entire army took out their broadswords and hacked away at anything that moved. The field stained red and littered with countless generations, the enemy reached him. Fear rushed through him and he froze. Unable to move, he saw his imminent death, only moments away.
A creature emerged from the crowd and walked towards him, sword flashing in the crimson in the light. Then he realised the creature wasn’t carrying weapons, they were weapons. Its arm was flat and razor sharp, it had no need of a sword. They had been born and raised for this single purpose. The creature swung for him, angling its arm downwards. He managed to raise his arm just in time, to block the attack, and shield his exposed flesh. The sound of crashing metal echoed  throughout his mind as he focussed on the creature. Attack after attack, he avoided the deathly swings, but never able to attack, himself. Then, he missed. The creature dropped its left arm and sliced his chest open. It all went suddenly silent. As his eyes lowered, he looked at his blood covered hands, and it all went dark.

To be continued ...

Friday, 4 March 2011

Not what I was expecting


So today I had several options for posts that I will surely save for the future, so don’t worry, there will be plenty of content coming your way. However, I had decided immediately to do a post on revision and grades as I got full marks on a test and it was the best in the year. Yay me.

But I have been feeling kinda down lately, and well, quite frankly, I couldn’t be arsed.

Well, not that I couldn’t be arsed, but more, I didn’t feel up to doing a ‘yay me’ post when I feel like complete crap.

So yes, I’m sorry fellow bloggers and mystery guests, but this post is going to be about me being down in the dumps. But due to popular demand, you guys said you wanted me to share these moments with you, so just be warned.

So its just been one of those weeks for me, where I get a bit sad about nothing in particular, and then I get ‘tempted’. Whether it be a passing ‘cutting’ thought, or a simple ‘this would kill you’. Don’t worry, I don’t act on it. At this stage it is very simple, and I get through several of these thoughts in an hour or two, perfectly manageable to me.

But then I get thinking about life, as we all do and it goes a bit downhill.

Life sucks.

If there is life, then there will be happiness; if there is happiness then there will be hope; with hope there will be dreams; with dreams, reality; reality, disappointment; disappointment, sadness and distress.

Its inevitable.

But I know that from this disappointment – where you are at rock bottom – it is much easier to find happiness and hope.

The cycle continues.

Is there a way to break this cycle? Is there a way to just remain in a perpetual state of one of these categories? Why must life be full of little surprises where history changes one TINY event, to make things completely different? And yet, the basics remain the same.

It just seems like I’m reliving events over and over again, only difference is: I know the outcome. Yet, I cant seem to change it. Like a nightmare that you have no control over, it just keeps coming back, night after night, the same events unfolding, unable to help yourself. Until you wake up.

Think back to your past, all those years ago. Were you once happy? Were you once full of hope and dreams for the future? Did those hopes and dreams one day come true? Or did you simply change them once reality struck? Did you fall? Have you fallen? Are you falling? ...

Jack xx
(sorry for the depressive post, but hope you didn’t mind the change in structure/content.)


Sometimes I just wonder if things are better off without me ...

Thursday, 3 March 2011

Back at Last!

HEY EVERYONE!

No, I’m not dead! Just returning from a mandatory vacation.

Well not really a vacation, more ‘a visit to hell’. My laptop got a nasty virus on Friday and it has taken a week to get it fixed. Cost a small ransom, but I needed it to be able to LIVE!

But I will be honest that as this is my 101st post, I wanted to make it something more special, and make this my re-vamp!

SURPRISE!!!!

Yes, for a long time now I have felt that my blogging has not gone the way I wanted it to, and has just become a menial diary where I dictate my bland life to you. No point arguing, we all know its true. So I have several instalments – and hopefully improvements – to make. So here they go:

I want to reflect upon life in general, so my posts will still contain what’s been happening in my life, but I want to be more theoretical. What’s the point in focusing on how I trod in Dog Faeces, if I’m not going to rant about why people cant clean up their messes.
I hope to post instalments of my novel (and/or sort stories on here) as I am an aspiring novelist. HA. I have been writing it since I was 7, where each attempt failed. I think the first time I tried to write a book, it lasted a page and a half. Start to finish! But this one is going well, so why not post it online?!
I will be opening up an Agony Uncle section, where people can send me questions of varying nature, and I will try my best to offer REAL advice x People usually confide in me and I try my best to help them out, so I thought, why should that be limited to physicality? I mean, just because I cant touch you guys, doesn’t mean you might not need help. It would all be confidential, and so I hope I get a few replies :)
There may be adverts coming up soon, as, well, me and Peter felt any help towards paying for plane tickets would be needed haha. I don’t know how badly this will affect my blog, hopefully not too much, but you’ll be there every step of the way with me :) ... hopefully.
And on that note, me and Peter have been discussing whether we should implement a donation section. A few incredibly generous people have offered substantial amounts to help (or practically) pay for me to see Peter, but due to stubbornness, our hatred for borrowing and a few other factors we turned them down. They shall remain nameless, upon request, but I just wanted to let them know how much it meant. However, we were brought back to the idea we had when we first started dating of having a donations section on our blog, where people could donate smaller, amounts IF THEY SO WISH! (sorry, I just don’t want people to feel pressured). We are not asking for money, nothing near it, and at the moment it is just talk, but people could donate smaller amounts if they want to, in exchange for more and more varied content. A kind of, payment, if you wish.

So these are the changes I will be making to my blog:
1.       Theoretical content, that reflects upon life
2.       Short stories/novel segments
3.       Agony Uncle
4.       Possibly Adverts
5.       Possibly Donations
Any feedback or advice is sorely needed ad appreciated! Oh, and if there is anything else you want to see up here, just say so :)
And I won’t hold it against any followers if they ‘un’ follow. My log will not be what you signed up for, so I hope none go, but its ok :) I’m not going to hunt you down ... much. Haha.

Jack xx